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18 August 2009 @ 02:53 am
A new journey  

I've been teaching yoga consistently for the past eight years and last Tuesday was my final class.  There have been varied changes in the management of the facility where I had been teaching and in the change all my students have moved on.  In preparation of this shift and my need to increase my personal practice I have been taking two additional classes each week.  And so, this is the journey...

As the instructor, I am in control of the style, pattern, and flow of the class.  I have learned to breathe and speak, to relax and hold as I cue, or to watch my class and support them.  On my mat at home, the same applies.  Generally I write my flows or practice in preparation for class.  Sometimes I just work in specific asanas.

Since I have joined class as participant, the first lesson I had to learn was to turn off the teacher inside and being my focus to my mat.  From the back of the class this was a constant redirection; from the front , I had ego chatter.  Thankfully, I had my commitment to breathe and mindfulness.  Eventually, I learned to relax into being - being on the mat, being present, being student. One would imagine this comes with ease, especially after all these years, but the biggest bit I had to release was the need to be in control.

So, I have shifted again.  I joined a new club and now have three new teacher.  They have very different styles and poses I have never seen before.  At times I am distracted by the music - Sam Cook, Mary J Blige, Red Hot Chili Peppers, The Goo-Goo Dolls.  There were times I missed the cues.  On the other hand, I once received feedback about playing music with words.  I now understand.

I am preparing for the next great thing.  In my world that will be Hot Yoga.  The new studio hasn't yet opened, but we are planning for a fall appearance.  Hot Yoga will be offered three days a week.  As much as  I know anyone can begin at anytime, I would rather have a bit more stamina when I walk in.  What I have learned about being the student is that being in control; even as I upped the ante for my class was still within my comfort zone.

In every practice we reach for ease and effort.  It is amazing when we allow another to extend our length and breathe, when we give in and give up, recreating the divine dance within ourselves.  Namaste

Current Location: work
Current Mood: relaxedrelaxed
tx_raventx_raven on August 18th, 2009 09:05 am (UTC)
i went through a similar thing as a former dance instructor. i quit teaching, moved, and subsequently joined another class as a student. the last time i was actively in a class as a student was '95. heh. it has been challenging to say the least! i am attempting to balance what the teacher is asking my body to do with what my body can and can't do any more... and all the while i am stifling the negative chatter in the back of my head about what i should be able to do but can't and what i would choose to do differently in the class. :D but i'm still having a wonderful time moving my body and having the experiences.
briand895 on June 4th, 2010 06:47 am (UTC)
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Yoga is good for the health. Wish you more luck on your Journey.
econafteconaft on January 23rd, 2012 05:53 am (UTC)
jazzydivagrrljazzydivagrrl on January 23rd, 2012 06:06 pm (UTC)
thank you very much for sharing this practice.